I didn't realise how far gone I was, how I lost myself, until I found little pieces of myself back again in places I hadn't been for a long time. I found parts in the mirror on my wardrobe, in lyrics of the songs that I once wrote, in the laughter of my family and [...]
my dreams were big. i gave my all, but i gave way too much. i ignored my intuition and acted out of reason. something i should never do again. so i guess this situation i got trapped in is the result of not listening to my heart. i'm so sorry to myself. these high hopes [...]
living with a rapid cycling bipolar disorder is... ... waking up in the morning and feeling on top of the world, then a minuscule event happens, like a bad feedback on your work or a message you sent that is being ignored, and your world falls apart - all the happy feelings disappear and a [...]
life's getting better. the sun started to shine again. the mornings are lighter & the nights a little less heavy. the nightmares are gone. my mind is clearer now. my hands stopped shaking & my stomach doesn't hurt anymore. my eyes aren't burning anymore. my breath reminds me of being alive. i feel grateful. for [...]
Sometimes I forget to be proud of myself. I've been so hard on myself ever since the day I was born. Always striving for perfection, feeling guilty when resting & feeling like I've never done enough, like I never tried hard enough. But God, how hard I tried, how hard I try, every day again. [...]
I don't think pain fades. I know memories fade, but can also be brought back easily by a reminder through the senses. But once love fades, was it even love in the first place? I don't know, maybe? I knew that it was love, because no matter how hurt I was, I never stopped loving. [...]
"You were a danger to my sanity But I was addicted to the madnessIt made me feel alive in a way that to me was unfamiliar But I don't think it was healthy"