L.o.s.t.m.y.s.e.l.f. #Thoughts

I didn't realise how far gone I was, how I lost myself, until I found little pieces of myself back again in places I hadn't been for a long time. I found parts in the mirror on my wardrobe, in lyrics of the songs that I once wrote, in the laughter of my family and [...]

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Twist of faith #Thoughts

my dreams were big. i gave my all, but i gave way too much. i ignored my intuition and acted out of reason. something i should never do again. so i guess this situation i got trapped in is the result of not listening to my heart. i'm so sorry to myself. these high hopes [...]

What living with a (rapid cycling) bipolar disorder feels like… #Self-Help

living with a rapid cycling bipolar disorder is... ... waking up in the morning and feeling on top of the world, then a minuscule event happens, like a bad feedback on your work or a message you sent that is being ignored, and your world falls apart - all the happy feelings disappear and a [...]

life’s getting better #Thoughts

life's getting better. the sun started to shine again. the mornings are lighter & the nights a little less heavy. the nightmares are gone. my mind is clearer now. my hands stopped shaking & my stomach doesn't hurt anymore. my eyes aren't burning anymore. my breath reminds me of being alive. i feel grateful. for [...]

Proud #Thoughts

Sometimes I forget to be proud of myself. I've been so hard on myself ever since the day I was born. Always striving for perfection, feeling guilty when resting & feeling like I've never done enough, like I never tried hard enough. But God, how hard I tried, how hard I try, every day​ again. [...]