now i know. i needed this loneliness, i needed this pain and all the heartbreaks. i was meant to suffer in the dark, all by myself, isolated and detached. the anxiety, the panic, the depression, the sadness, the emptiness was all needed for me to grow. it forced me to fight, to find the light, [...]
There is no magical land I used to romanticize this place in my head, for years. Ever since I was 12 years old I was dying to move to this amazing pastel-colored city that never sleeps. But although the skylines are brighter, the people are more authentic, the food tastes nicer and the culture is [...]
life's getting better. the sun started to shine again. the mornings are lighter & the nights a little less heavy. the nightmares are gone. my mind is clearer now. my hands stopped shaking & my stomach doesn't hurt anymore. my eyes aren't burning anymore. my breath reminds me of being alive. i feel grateful. for [...]
Look at all these words she spits on paper All this screaming, all this incurable desperation She doesn’t want to, but she sees no other way to release herself from her hunger, her pain & ponder To extricate herself from the hopelessness & emptiness that keeps her hostage She stays haunted by the rose-coloured past [...]
"Maybe I fell a little too fast and dove a little too deep Because the view was so beautiful and I didn't see The potential hurt that was hidden Behind a facade of magic and beauty"
I'm really sorry for being so open, so honest and true I noticed people find it odd, when you're so 'you'They rather cage you and keep their hand against your lips So you can't talk about the burden, the bleeding of your chest I don't have secrets and I don't wish to have some I'm [...]
She wanted it so bad Not needing anyone She prayed so hard She could be perfectly happy by herself But the more she tried to be content with her own company The more lonely she felt And she could admit that all along it was love that she needed But she didn't want that to [...]