Holly and Me (Breakfast At Tiffany’s) #Movies

As the whole world knows already, Breakfast at Tiffany's, starring Audrey Hepburn, is my favourite movie. Ever. The Classical Hollywood Style of filmmaking has a way of taking me to an alternate universe, clearing my mind and giving me the feeling of being in love. I watch it whenever I'm blue, it makes me feel [...]


Mental Update #Thoughts

I took my pills, somewhat earlier this evening than I was meant to. I don't want you to see me like this. I want you to keep that image of me, you had before you started to know me too well. It scares you away, I know. It scares me away too. People talk to [...]

Impatience, Anticipation, Frustration #Thoughts

My mind is everywhere, my thoughts all over the place. They're floating around and never settling down. Running in circles, pacing back and forth. The thing is, I'm always impatient. There are always too many things I want to do, to have or to experience. Too many ideas in my mind and worlds I want [...]

Attachment (and a short introduction to Buddhism) #Thoughts

I'm familair with melancholy, being sentimental is my second nature. Darkness is a friend of mine, I only wish he didn't visit me that much. A lot of my sadness, I learned, comes from attachment. Not that much attachment to a person or a physical thing, but attachment to time, to moments. I want to [...]

Light and Dark #Thoughts

I feel like I'm more than one person, but not in a schizophrenic kind of way. I am just constantly switching between two versions of myself. One version of me is light. She loves life, she's spontaneous and assertive, open-minded and hopeful. She believes in herself, recognizes her talents and loves the people that are a [...]

April 30th ‘18 #Thoughts

It feels odd, being back home again. The contrast between London and the place I grew up in is huge. Life is so safe here, so simple, so quiet. It might sound strange, but I miss the busy streets, the strangers, the feeling of being anonymous. I'm not saying that I like to feel lonely, [...]