living with a rapid cycling bipolar disorder is... ... waking up in the morning and feeling on top of the world, then a minuscule event happens, like a bad feedback on your work or a message you sent that is being ignored, and your world falls apart - all the happy feelings disappear and a [...]
life's getting better. the sun started to shine again. the mornings are lighter & the nights a little less heavy. the nightmares are gone. my mind is clearer now. my hands stopped shaking & my stomach doesn't hurt anymore. my eyes aren't burning anymore. my breath reminds me of being alive. i feel grateful. for [...]
"I may not be good enough for him, not good enough for you, but at least I'm good enough for me. And only I have the ability to make myself happy, so, end of story."
"He looked so gorgeous when he looked away Glad he did, so he could not see me stare At his flawless, enchanting face For this, he could stay unaware Of the fact that I was falling in too deep Cause someone like him Could never see the beauty in someone like me"
I'm full of melancholy, my soul is filled with sadness, but also with wonder, faith and hunger. I'm defined by my dreams, guided by my soul, but I'm being haunted by the world at times. Sometimes depression takes the best of me, while bringing out the worst in me. Whenever this happens, I find it [...]
Freedom is amazing, liberating and all I want But freedom is limiting, in a sense, causes me a heavy heart Although, 'limiting' might not be the right word Perhaps, freedom is just 'scary', in a way I'm full of responsibility and surrounded by so many possibilities I can't blame no one else, I can't blame [...]
What a privilege it is To have my heart broken by you It caused you to be the protagonist In oh so many songs that I wrote You're the core of so many poems How lucky my heart is to have fallen into a million pieces By such a beautiful destructor Your words broke my [...]