now i know. i needed this loneliness, i needed this pain and all the heartbreaks. i was meant to suffer in the dark, all by myself, isolated and detached. the anxiety, the panic, the depression, the sadness, the emptiness was all needed for me to grow. it forced me to fight, to find the light, [...]
living with a rapid cycling bipolar disorder is... ... waking up in the morning and feeling on top of the world, then a minuscule event happens, like a bad feedback on your work or a message you sent that is being ignored, and your world falls apart - all the happy feelings disappear and a [...]
life's getting better. the sun started to shine again. the mornings are lighter & the nights a little less heavy. the nightmares are gone. my mind is clearer now. my hands stopped shaking & my stomach doesn't hurt anymore. my eyes aren't burning anymore. my breath reminds me of being alive. i feel grateful. for [...]
"I'm sorry for writing about you in the songs I sing to the worldBut it's all because you won't listen and the words crave to be heard"
I'm full of melancholy, my soul is filled with sadness, but also with wonder, faith and hunger. I'm defined by my dreams, guided by my soul, but I'm being haunted by the world at times. Sometimes depression takes the best of me, while bringing out the worst in me. Whenever this happens, I find it [...]
I don't want to waste any more words on love gone to waste I don't want to memorize any moments that hurt my memory I don't want to feel any feelings that were based on illusions and lies I don't want to think about thoughts ain't worth thinking of I don't want to be anxious [...]
And in that moment I remembered, I did recall what brought me here in the first place It was the feeling of truly being alive, it was the feeling that hit me when I was staring at the million rainbow coloured city lights It was the amount of people, all so different and unique, creating [...]