melancholia #thoughts

it both chokes me and frees me, haunts me and inspires me, breaks me and heals me, leaves a bittersweet aftertaste in the corners of my mouth. the night holds my heart in the way you used to hold this damaged organ. i remember how you held my hand, unwillingly to let go, while strolling [...]

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Proud #Thoughts

Sometimes I forget to be proud of myself. I've been so hard on myself ever since the day I was born. Always striving for perfection, feeling guilty when resting & feeling like I've never done enough, like I never tried hard enough. But God, how hard I tried, how hard I try, every day​ again. [...]

Not Soon Enough #Poem

I have trouble with being patient, I have trouble with waiting And it's the one thing about myself I'd like to change I wish to be not so impatient, to go along with whatever comes my way Maybe it's just the fear that it'll never arrive Once I'd let go of the desire, of the [...]

Find A Way #Poem

She says she is not insecure, but yet you don't see her a day without make-up She says she doesn't need somebody to love, but loneliness hits her as soon as she wakes up She tells everyone how happy she is and she even starts to believe it herself She has got everything she needs, [...]