Naivety #Thoughts

I've been through much heartbreak, but still I love as deep as the Pacific waters I've been let down by more people than I can count, but still those people can always count on me I've been told so many lies, but I still believe there's a truth in them They showed me all their ugly [...]

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What living with a (rapid cycling) bipolar disorder feels like… #Self-Help

living with a rapid cycling bipolar disorder is... ... waking up in the morning and feeling on top of the world, then a minuscule event happens, like a bad feedback on your work or a message you sent that is being ignored, and your world falls apart - all the happy feelings disappear and a [...]

life’s getting better #Thoughts

life's getting better. the sun started to shine again. the mornings are lighter & the nights a little less heavy. the nightmares are gone. my mind is clearer now. my hands stopped shaking & my stomach doesn't hurt anymore. my eyes aren't burning anymore. my breath reminds me of being alive. i feel grateful. for [...]

Proud #Thoughts

Sometimes I forget to be proud of myself. I've been so hard on myself ever since the day I was born. Always striving for perfection, feeling guilty when resting & feeling like I've never done enough, like I never tried hard enough. But God, how hard I tried, how hard I try, every day​ again. [...]

Desperation #LittlePoetry #23

Look at all these words she spits on paper All this screaming, all this incurable desperation She doesn’t want to, but she sees no other way to release herself from her hunger, her pain & ponder To extricate herself from the hopelessness & emptiness that keeps her hostage She stays haunted by the rose-coloured past [...]