life's getting better. the sun started to shine again. the mornings are lighter & the nights a little less heavy. the nightmares are gone. my mind is clearer now. my hands stopped shaking & my stomach doesn't hurt anymore. my eyes aren't burning anymore. my breath reminds me of being alive. i feel grateful. for [...]
Sometimes I forget to be proud of myself. I've been so hard on myself ever since the day I was born. Always striving for perfection, feeling guilty when resting & feeling like I've never done enough, like I never tried hard enough. But God, how hard I tried, how hard I try, every day again. [...]
Look at all these words she spits on paper All this screaming, all this incurable desperation She doesn’t want to, but she sees no other way to release herself from her hunger, her pain & ponder To extricate herself from the hopelessness & emptiness that keeps her hostage She stays haunted by the rose-coloured past [...]
Maybe you were worried about the miles, just like me & although I knew the heartless reality, was enough to hold back the both of us, I was willing to cross worlds, because of my love, for you, but I couldn’t tell if you’d do this too
You got me a little drunk, but I wasn’t sure if it was the alcohol or me drowning in the love, I knew I couldn’t give to you, but nonetheless tried to.
& with every piece of herself she gave to the world, she lost herself a little more, until she was completely offshore
"I hate you for not telling the truth But I hate myself more for believing it was the truth"