We all spend our days hoping and wishing on a fallen star We all hope tomorrow will be better, we are stuck in a work of art And we keep driving and running and hiding away We’re all dying inside, we’re so done with this game And we’re all crying and lying, we’re stuck in …
My mind is everywhere, my thoughts all over the place. They’re floating around and never settling down. Running in circles, pacing back and forth. The thing is, I’m always impatient. There are always too many things I want to do, to have or to experience. Too many ideas in my mind and worlds I want … Continue reading Impatience, Anticipation, Frustration
I’m familair with melancholy, being sentimental is my second nature. Darkness is a friend of mine, I only wish he didn’t visit me that much. A lot of my sadness, I learned, comes from attachment. Not that much attachment to a person or a physical thing, but attachment to time, to moments. I want to … Continue reading Attachment (and a short introduction to Buddhism)
Yesterday I couldn’t sleep. I laid in bed with my eyes closed and my body covered with blankets. I wasn’t really tired, but I wasn’t wide awake either. I was restless instead. Tossing and turning, praying for sleep to come and get me. But he didn’t. Instead he let me drown, into a dark, deep … Continue reading Remembering Memories
I feel like I’m more than one person, but not in a schizophrenic kind of way. I am just constantly switching between two versions of myself. One version of me is light. She loves life, she’s spontaneous and assertive, open-minded and hopeful. She believes in herself, recognizes her talents and loves the people that are a … Continue reading Light and Dark
It feels odd, being back home again. The contrast between London and the place I grew up in is huge. Life is so safe here, so simple, so quiet. It might sound strange, but I miss the busy streets, the strangers, the feeling of being anonymous. I’m not saying that I like to feel lonely, … Continue reading April 30th ‘18
Dreaming, Wandering, Exploring 