my dreams were big. i gave my all, but i gave way too much. i ignored my intuition and acted out of reason. something i should never do again. so i guess this situation i got trapped in is the result of not listening to my heart. i’m so sorry to myself. these high hopes and this blind faith made me lose myself in a way i never did before. i held on so tight to the possibilities, unwilling to let go of this vision in my head, this version of myself. besides that, i wanted to belong in a place that maybe was never meant for me… but at the same time, this was the only place i’ve ever called home. but i got neglected and abandoned, betrayed and traumatized. it left me heartbroken. so was this a lesson or was it just a twist of faith?